• Photo Update : Mummy & Ili Time

    Life is truly a blessing. I’m so grateful for a job that lets me work from home, allowing me to cherish every little moment with Iliana as she grows. And in many ways, I’m growing alongside her too! This is an answered prayer!

  • Dream : The Pontoon and the Submarine

    I recently had a dream featuring Dana (my childhood friend), Jia-wei (my husband) and myself. It was a gloomy day, the sky heavy with clouds and strong winds whipped around us as we stepped onto a floating plastic pontoon extending to the sea. The water was rough, forcing all three of us to carefully find our balance.

    As we ventured further out, a sudden gust of wind blew Jia-wei’s hat off his head. Without hesitation, he dove headfirst into the churning sea to retrieve it. He managed to grab hold of the hat, but by then, the wind and current had already carried him far from the pontoon. As he turned to swim back toward us, a shadow beneath the water shifted and an underwater creature raised its head just enough to peer at Jia-wei. He didn’t see it, but Dana and I did, and we immediately started screaming for him to hurry.

    Before he could reach us, the creature lunged, dragging Jia-wei beneath the surface. Panic surged through me but before I could react, Dana had already jumped into the water, seemingly to distract the creature. It worked. The creature released Jia-wei and he swam frantically back to the pontoon, coughing and gasping as I pulled him to safety. But Dana.. was no where to be seen.

    Jia-wei and I ran down the pontoon, desperate to find help. My heart pounded as the wind howled around us, and then, in the distance, we spotted someone approaching. The figure was wrapped in a blanket, moving steadily toward us. As she got closer, I was shock to find it was Dana!

    Overwhelmed with relief and confusion, I blurted “WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?” in which she replied “I just woke up and came from my submarine.”

    And then, I woke up.

  • Photo Update : Friends

    Hoptpot nights + my crazy girls = the perfect recipe for a good time!

  • Breastfeeding, Allergies and the Magic of Freeze-Dried Milk

    I received my freeze dried breast milk a few days ago from a company called The Breastmilk Company. A little backstory on my breastfeeding journey —when Iliana was born, she had trouble latching. No matter how much I adjusted her position or mine, the latch was always shallow and painful, leaving me with bloody nipples. My breasts would become engorged on some days and I worried that inconsistent feeding might affect my milk supply. Eventually, I decided to buy a breast pump and that made a world of difference.

    Of course, there are pros and cons to both direct breastfeeding and exclusively pumping (EBM). I won’t dive into that here, but just know, whatever decision you make is the right one momma! I remember feeling an overwhelming sense of guilt when I made the switch to pumping. I cried, a lot! I felt like a bad mother for not being able to fix the latch issue. But looking back, I realize that choosing to pump was the best decision for us. Although I was sad at first, I became much happier in the long run, and most importantly, Iliana was a happy baby too.

    It’s been about a year since I started pumping, and I’ve intentionally built up a substantial stash of milk in the freezer. Let me explain why. Iliana is allergic to cow’s milk and eggs, and she also has other food sensitivities. Since she relies on breast milk, I’ve had to eliminate these foods from my own diet. But let’s be honest, sometimes I slip up. Whether it’s indulging in a slice of pizza or enjoying a little too much cheese during the holidays (hello, Christmas!), there are days when I treat myself.

    When that happens, I don’t give her milk I pump during those indulgent days, out of fear that it might trigger a reaction. Instead, I use my “clean” milk from the freezer—milk I stored when my diet was allergen free. Having that back up supply gives me a peace of mind and ensures Iliana stays safe and healthy.

    But I’m also running out of freezer space now! I’d heard of freeze drying food before but never thought it could be done with breast milk so naturally, I turned to Google. Turns out, you can freeze dry breast milk! Wunderbar! And the benefits? Honestly, they’re amazing! Here are a few that stood out to me:

    Space Saving: Goodbye, cluttered freezer!

    Extended Shelf Life: Freeze dried breast milk can last up to three years when properly stored, compared to only about a year in a home freezer.

    Nutrient Preservation: Recent research suggests freeze drying retains most of the nutritional and bioactive components of breast milk, while frozen milk slowly loses quality over time.

    Convenience: Freeze dried breast milk is lightweight and easy to transport—perfect for travel!

    I’ve always wondered how I’d manage to travel while bringing along Iliana’s “clean” frozen milk. There’s also that lingering worry—what if I accidentally ingest an allergen while we’re on the go? (you can’t always control your meals when travelling) With freeze dried breast milk, I can still provide safe milk for Iliana without the logistical headache. It’s a game-changer!

    I’m so grateful to the founders of The Breastmilk Company, Arthur and Ting, for making this service available in Malaysia. So far they are the only ones offering breast milk freeze drying here and their website provides a wealth of information with references. I also made a special request to drop off my frozen milk, an option not listed on their website and they kindly accommodated me. Arthur even personally delivered the finished product to my doorstep. I’m so happy I found them!

    For any breastfeeding moms facing similar challenges, knowing there’s a solution like this is incredibly reassuring. It’s one less thing to worry about and having that peace of mind is priceless.

  • From Roof Leaks To New Beginnings – My Life Right Now

    Not to bring the negative vibes, but wow! I’m one overwhelmed mama! There’s too much to do and never enough time. Right now, I’m juggling a leaking roof (which has been a problem since the day we moved in!). Even though the defect liability period (DLP) is over, I’m pushing the developers to take responsibility and fix it. Honestly, I’m THIS close to taking legal action!

    On top of that, we’re in the middle of hiring a domestic helper from the Philippines—selecting the right person, choosing an agency to assist with the paperwork, and preparing for the (not-so-fun) payment process. And after all that? More waiting.

    But here’s a win—I landed a job! I’ll be joining a satellite communication service provider as an administrator (or “facility manager,” as the offer letter puts it), and I start in two days. It’s a mix of nerves and excitement, but I’m looking forward to this new chapter!